Over the past several months, I have become a sloth. I've been frustrated with my knee. Somedays it hurts to walk around, somedays it feels like I could go run 20 miles on the trail (if I was physically capable anymore). This frustration had led me to give up on myself. I haven't done much of anything at all- no planks, push-ups, PT exercises, running, riding on the trainer or anything else remotely athletic.
I decided I needed to redefine myself. I had no more goals. I had no desire. I had nothing to motivate me. I lost the fun of working out just for the hell of it.
So, redefine myself I will.
Into what? I decided to get back into racing...bicycle racing! I've got a long way to go, but I plan on finding a cat 5 race in the late summer. For now, it'll be riding the roads when I can and on the rollers when I can't. I'll also be doing the occasional plank and some push-ups as well. I remember really needing those arms to help propel myself up those hills! Geez...did I really use to attack them in the 53 tooth ring? Yeah, and I'm looking forward to the challenge of getting back at it.
Will I get to where I was? I did with running in terms of distance (and setting distance PR's) but not with speed. I don't think I'll be heading out for an easy 80 or 90 mile ride each weekend, or grinding out a tough 23 in an hour without aerobars (I remember that PR at 23.4- easy to remember!). But I really want to break my speed PR of 58 MPH on a downhill. I know exactly where that hill is. I remember that speed, too.
The bike I have will have to be good enough for the road, but I'd like to get into cyclocross as well and I'd need a bike for that. And, of course, I've got my eye on a couple...but I'm not going to get ahead of myself yet.
But, like I said, I can't get ahead of myself. My dicktor that said I shouldn't run anymore (ok, it's worked out that way...for now) also said I shouldn't ride a whole lot either. We'll see.