I'm afraid of running.
I haven't run much at all the past month plus.
What am I afraid of?
I'm afraid of how my knee will react. No, I'm afraid my knee will hurt. I've had days where it hurts when I walk. I've had days where it felt great. I've been doing Focus T25, though not regularly. Somedays I have to modify the exercises for my knee, some days I don't.
I'm afraid that if I run, the pain will bring me down. Every time I feel a twinge, I think about not running any more. I think about the dr who told me I shouldn't run anymore, or even ride my bike a whole lot because of the structure of my knee.
But I need to overcome this fear.
Because if I let it take over, then I won't be running because of fear, not because of my knee.
It's just like I tell kids, if you never ask, the answer will always be 'no'. If you ask, there'a always a chance it'll be 'yes'. I need to take that chance. I need to run. I need to hear that 'yes' and say 'fuck you' to the dr that operated on my knee and told me I shouldn't run anymore.