What's in a number? Feelings? Happiness? Joy? Fear?
Numbers are just that...numbers...unless...
You make a mental barrier out of them.
1 (mile): Just get out the door and do it. Once thought of as tough, it is now what you strive to run pain free. But you are tough for others but they will make you their bitch for making them fear you.
5 (k): After that first 1, 5k seemed a long way. Now you can do it regularly under 21, even under 20, once.
10 (k): A goal distance at one point and it took over an hour to get there. In peak training last year, 10k was your easy recovery day.
10 (miles): Double digits! I remember my first double digit run. It was the day before my last triathlon (3rd in my age group- another number). I was ecstatic to reach it and strive for it to come again, but slowly, not at a price.
13.1: My next major goal distance. I reached that 10 mile plateau twice while training for my first 1/2. I hurt badly during this run. I ached for a couple days after it. I hit this distance bout 10-15 times while training last year and felt good doing it.
26.2: The Mythical marathon. I have hit this distance twice and twice I did not stop until I had gone further. I have never run a marathon and don't know if I will. It is just a number, but it is a number that instills pride, joy, fear, anxiety, love, and passion, hate, fear, and loathing.
50 (k): My goal distance. I trained hard for this number. But like 13.1, I reached it before my goal race. I reached 50k and did not stop. I went a few miles more despite the fact that my brain told me I could go further.
50 (miles): My new goal. I have two days planned out to try to reach this goal. All the feelings listed in 26.2 are here for me at 50. My main fear is that I will not be healed well enough to reach it. My MAIN fear is that my leg will not be healed.
100 (k): I am ready to hit 50 this year mentally. I know I can do it. 100k is the next number. I dream of hitting it in 2013, I will hit it in 2013. When I hit 50 this year, I will need to gain some speed to hit 100k or find a 100k race close by to find this number.
100 (miles): I want this. I know it is years off, but I will be there. You are to me what all the numbers before you are to others. You instill great fear and anxiety. More than 50, more than 100k. I will conquer you one day. You will be mine.
1000 (miles): I hit this goal for the first time last year. You are a goal I can say I have reached. Injuries this year will NOT prevent me from reaching you again. I will train smart and I will see you in the Fall. You are probably also the reason why I am injured- you an 50k both. Too many miles too soon. Overuse caused my injury. I will NOT let that happen again even at the cost of 50 miles.
Numbers. That's all they are, just numbers.